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Frankie Bridge has candidly opened up about how her paranoia once led her to be convinced she had killed her son Parker.
Former The Saturdays singer Frankie, 32, is proud mum to sons Parker, seven, and six year old Carter.
She has been incredibly candid about her struggles with mental health over the years and in her new book, Grow: Motherhood, the Loose Women star has revealed how it has affected her experience with being a mum.
Frankie has revealed the traumatising time she had convinced herself that she had killed her elder son Parker when he was a baby.
Loose Women star Frankie, who recently revealed she felt guilty over being a mum as her sister struggled with her fertility, explained how she had taken him to get his chickenpox jab before his first birthday.
Frankie said she was advised to do so by a medical professional, but after her son received the jab, she was told by her paediatrician she should have waited until Parker had turned one.
She recalled how it had stirred up emotions as she wrote in her book: "The guilt and fear I had felt throughout the day spiralled. And it resulted in a complete meltdown.
"My paranoia kicked into overdrive too and I became convinced I had killed my child, before he’d even really got the chance to live."
In reality, the early administration of the jab simply meant it may not work, rather than cause Parker any harm.
But, the incident left mum Frankie, who is married to former footballer Wayne Bridge, feeling like a "failure" of a mother and "a waste of space, bound to let my kids down".
In the book, which she hopes will help others who are struggling with similar experiences, Frankie also opened up about suffering with separation anxiety.
Frankie recalled how leaving son Parker to go on honeymoon with her husband Wayne after they tied the knot in 2014, caused another breakdown.
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The pair wed at Woburn Abbey in Bedfordshire, nine months after Parker was born.
Frankie started to panic and broke down in tears over worries she and Wayne could die while they were abroad and leave son Parker with no-one to take care of him.
Moments before the newlyweds boarded the plane, Frankie recalled how she demanded Wayne to change their wills.
She said: "This type of crisis moment is something I had dealt with throughout my life, but I had never been responsible for someone else, and this compounded my paranoia and exacerbated my fears.
"I made Wayne call his lawyer and discuss it with him so there was some form of plan in place."
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